I didn’t know we had quite so many secrets in our family. In light of recent events (*cough*beating*cough*people*cough*up*cough* – Shut up, Will!), Grandma decided to talk to me.

And, uh… tell me the truth about who and what we are.

So yeah, I’m writing this down because I want to be able to remember and tell my own children one day. Not that I’ll have any, unless they allow clones again because yeuch! where am I going to find someone I like enough to have kids with?

But I digress. You have the attention span of a sandkreet. Shut up, Will and get out of my diary. Sheesh, talk about PMS. I don’t have those. You so do. Shut UP!

Erm… where was I?

My family.

My great-grandfather was a bad man named Crevein Midanyl, who apparently did much evil and ended up killing Grandma Ellia’s mother. He then killed himself and left much of his stuff to my grandma. She didn’t say anything more but I sensed there was something.

So my grandmother’s name is Ellia Midanyl and she was married to Kieran Ardellian. With him, she had two children, Jacen and Drea.
When Drea was three, she was found to be Force-sensitive and was taken by the Jedi in Coruscant, with the firm promise that she’d be returned to her family when she was old enough and had found a master of Corellian descent who was willing to train her.

Drea returned to Corellia when she was 17 and started training with a Jedi master whose name my grandmother didn’t remember (or didn’t want to tell me).
Things went well for a time.

Then the Clone Wars happened.

My aunt (it’s weird to think I have another aunt than vacuum-for-brains Aunt Luvi) was called back to Coruscant to join the Grand Army of the Republic and fight alongside such legends as Mace Windu, Master Yoda, etc. (I’ve never heard of any of them… except as being traitors to the Empire).
There were many battles and Grandma says many Jedi were killed but not Drea. After that, something went wrong and the then-Senator Palpatine took power, claiming that the Jedi were crazy and trying to take power.

All Jedi were purged, even the youngest ones (younger than me!!) in an effort to stamp out the Jedi.

Drea dissapeared shortly before the Jedi Purge, in something my grandmother refused to explain. When I asked her questions, she shushed me and told me she would tell me when it was time.

So it stands to reason that I’m Force-sensitive too and as such, Grandma thinks that I should not being using those powers because they have brought only darkness and death to the family since the Empire came to power.

She says that there is hope for the Jedi because of a guy called Luke Skywalker. I kinda remember hearing about him when I was 11 or 12 because he was rumoured to be the one who contributed to the destruction of the Death Stars and the death of millions of troops.
And to conclude all this, she said that as soon as the war was over, she would personally petition for me to be tested by this new Jedi guy so that I could be trained.

Apparently, both Dad and Uncle Pter knew about this.

Okay, this time, I had a real reason for being grounded.

After all, I did get into a fight with Vereg. Funny thing is, I’m not afraid of him anymore. I’m pretty sure I could eat two of him for breakfast.

It happened really fast too and I don’t remember much about it.

During PE, Kyle, Will and I were trying to play and Vereg came along. He said something, I can’t remember what now. All I know is that I felt as if a light had come on in my head and the next thing I knew, I was on the ground, beating the living crap out of him.

Suspension was not pronouced because Grandma spoke to the principal…

But boy… she gave me a talking to.

…
William is freaked out.

What have I done?

It’s alright for some people to go and do things but I can’t do anything without my entire family falling upon me like the plague. Am I supposed to sit out the rest of my life because it’s not safe?

So it was probably wrong of me to go and twist Maka’s mind to make her take her clothes off during assembly but how the hell did the parental units find out about it?

Grandma gave me so much grief over this it’s not funny.

But what was the need for grounding me for a month? It’s not like I’m not going to go to school or anything.

Rumours have it that he’ll be docked in Corellia for well over a standard month getting his ship repaired, so there might be some time where Will is unavailable. I don’t know about all that though, because Dad doesn’t want me to have too much information.

Will has gone to see his father and he is distinctly unhappy. Can you imagine seeing your father almost die on the Galactic News? No, I can’t either.

He suspended me right there and then. Will was waiting for me outside of the office when I came out. Maka was fine, standing in front of the school smoking, as usual. Because she felt she’d won, she pointed at me and laughed, whispering to her friends. For some reason, I felt extremely angry and clenched my fist. Maka started coughing and clawing at her throat. Distinctly enough, I heard Will yelling at me to stop but for some reason, no one else did.

On the way home, Will lectured me about my anger. I didn’t want to tell him why I’d hit Maka in the first place but it was just easier to tell him why rather than letting him bang on about it. He was angry at me but he said I should be more careful about my anger and that in Coruscant, it can be a tool used by those who want to take advantage of you.
I know all this. But I’m never going to be important enough that it matters.

She gave me this bracelet to wear that she says will protect me. It’s quite pretty and it has a tiny little stone with a swirling cloud in it. I think it’s a holographic stone of some kind but I can’t find the activator.

I’ve been sick in bed all day since yesterday. Granma says I had heat exhaustion because the speeder bike overheated and I was too small to really control it when I went to see Dad last night. Will came by to stay with us and we’ve been watching the holonet and playing games all day. I can tell he’s really worried but he’s trying not to let on. But his voice in my head is all panicky.
Mom says he can stay in the guest room for tonight.

People are being weird. There were some fireworks during the day but then the soldiers were called out of the garrison and CorSec forces were out and about a lot. They arrested loads of people on account of them being terrorists and Rebels.

I’m having bad nightmares right now. Doctor Jenker came over earlier today and gave me some medication to take. He says it should go away in a few days but I’m not so sure. Mom thinks I’m making it all up to skip out of school. I do admit that the no-school thing is an added bonus. Can’t even imagine what Kyle is going on about right now. He is always one to talk about the right and wrong of this, that and how the ground troops are the best. Right now, he’s ranting on about how anyone worth the carbon they’re made of should be enlisting in the Empire and defending liberty and anyone else is just a dirty terrorist. I’d rather have the Empire than the Rebels, they have better ships but from what I heard of politics, the Emperor and Vader were dangerous. Maybe now they’re dead we could all build a better Empire.
He’s wrong. Pilots are the best and nothing can touch a pilot if they’re truly ace. Just like Baron Fel and that Rebel guy, Wedge what’s his name. I think I heard somewhere that he was the son of the Gus Treta guys. I wonder what happened to his sister…

The Empire sounds like a really bad government. They don’t show it often on the holonet but sometimes, we get stories like Toprawa hacked into the network by the Rebels. It’s infinitely wrong, what they did there.
I was too small to really remember visiting Alderaan but I do remember it was a place of great beauty.

I can see why Rebel supporters are happy but who is going to protect the people if there are no laws until they build a government? Already, there have been reports of lightfights and pillage in the lower sections of town.

Anyways, tonight, we’re going to see a Holo with Wynessa Starflare.

He asked me to call him Uncle Pter because he said quickly that if things had gone right, he’d have been my uncle. I wonder what he meant. I have to ask Granma next time she’s in a really good mood.

There’s less than a week left and one of Dad’s guys came over with this new swoop he built. It’s cool incarnate. He promised he’s show me how to fly it tomorrow.

I’ve been having nightmares since last week and one last message Granma had. Once she’d gotten it, she locked herself in her room for two hours and cried. I could feel her in my head, it was painful but I didn’t want to go up and tell her because I was afraid she’d get mad at me.

Another two weeks and school starts again. Will and I had a smashing time. I can’t believe he’s only been here less than a year. My parents took us and Grandma up to Shipwright Point, although Granma and Dad sometimes left to go back to Coronet. The house is really small compared to the one in Coronet and Will and I shared a room, although we didn’t spend too much time in there.

Will’s dad, Pter Wigefield, came to Corellia for a week’s leave. He’s actually really cool and he knows all those great stories! He even told us stories from before the Empire when he and Dad were in University. That sounded like a really great time. I think he’s really sad about someone who he knew from that time. He started saying something about a girl he knew called Drea but Granma had this look on her face that made him shut up. Will spent a lot of time with his dad and I didn’t get to see a lot of him then.

My parents had a big barbeque and invited all the neighbours of Point. But I don’t think the other kids like me or Will very much. His dad was a hit and so was Dad. All the women were charmed. I don’t think Mom was charmed by that, though.
I heard Keria Valdis tell her friends that Will was freaky and that I was just plain ugly. Meera Tharen said that I was quite nice but Keria shushed her and told her that if she were friends with me, she’d probably end up ugly. I felt it like pushing Keria in the lake and then she just fell in the lake. It was so strange!

The other families were there for the holidays as well and we spent a little time with kids our age, although it seems that they’re just too childish for me now, specially the girls. I had a lot more fun exploring places with Will. He has this really great sense for finding things. We found crystal shards and even a small blue-horned crab, which are really difficult to find normally.
I didn’t know he could swim but he does it really well. His blindness doesn’t affect it and he says he can feel things better in the water, because there are many live things in the water.

It’s true that there are many more things in the water. If you listen really close, you can hear the fish and all that telling you what’s in the water and if it tastes good. One of those purple fish actually said it was the best water because it tasted of summer. I wouldn’t know what a fish finds tasty, I’m not a fish but sea water is not that great to drink.

We even started a new thing called surfing. Basically, it’s trying to stand up on a board and staying up no matter how big the wave is and trying to ride the wave. It was pretty cool but I don’t think Will likes it. I do, though. It’s very easy once you get a hang of it and I have pretty good balance so it felt easy. I heard Coren Starchaser talk about it a lot at practice near the end of the year. I can see why he likes it, though.
It would be really cool if I could continue to do this. There just isn’t anything holding me back when I’m surfing and it feels as good as I imagine flying to be.

Granma has been really worried recently and recieving many messages from her friends off-planet. Every time she gets one, she call us back into the house for the entire day, then leaves for Coronet. It’s as if she was afraid something will happen to us. Last night, she called me to her room and told me that I mustn’t use my hunches in public and must never tell people that I see things they don’t or hear things that happen far away. I guess she’s afraid people will start to think I’m a Jedi or something.
I don’t want to end up in Kessel or worse, in Darth Vader’s ship.
She said I was old enough to know that there have been many great Jedi in our family but that this was something she didn’t want people to know because the Empire frowns on this and it could be dangerous if people even start to think I could be a Jedi one day.

She was also explaining me something about William and his blindness. I didn’t get anything but apparently, he’s something called a mirror looker, who knows what that means, since he can’t see. Granma Ellia said that he could see despite having no eyes because he is strong in the Force. That’s what I like about my granma, she knows things that other people don’t.
So anyways, she told me that he can actually see, using that Force, which kinda explains that he can everything I can and even find things I can’t see.

Actually, this is really cool because if the Empire ended one day, Will and I could be Jedi Knights! But Grandma says this can’t happen because I don’t have the Force and my hunches are just because I’m a really smart 12 year old. I wish though.

Will came by in the afternoon and gave me a small watch that has a compass and gives the dates and times on 5 major planets, including Corellia. It’s way cool.